New Years Resolution - Was there any doubt?

Wow, did I ever drop the ball.  I pretty much stopped everything, my blog, my weight loss challenge, working out....just completely off the wagon, so to speak.  Well, here I am, back on new years eve when all things seem to be possible.  The excitement and anticipation of a new year, fresh with no problems or issues, full of promise.  I have been here before, many times, with the same intention, to make a resolution and stick to it.  So is this time going to be any different?

Well a lot has happened this past fall.  Most recently I had my back surgery.  It was not as successful as it needed to be.  Only one tumour could be removed and I am left with nerve damage in my left foot (damn left foot) making it completely numb and effecting my balance.  In that first week of my recovery in the hospital, my hubby and I discussed things we want to do and places we want to go, both realizing that my back is going to continue to affect our lives going forward, in ways that are not yet known.  So we both need to live in the now, because it is all we have.  We both also realize that we owe it to ourselves and our kids to make our health a priority.  That means getting active and in both of our cases, dropping the weight.  For me, I know that my body is going to challenge me and I need to be ready, my body, mind and spirit need to be strong because I know I am going to be challenged. 

So, I am going to work towards this goal, with my husband at my side.  It is no longer a matter of just weight, it is overall health and quality of life that we are working hard for.  It still is in line with my goal to be fab inside and out by the time I am 40 years old.  I want to make me the priority and make some tough changes in my life.  I need to get moving, experiment in the kitchen and do things that make me happy.  I need to take the time to have fun, have fun with my kids.  Play.....just play with them.  My boys are getting older and I want them to have these wonderful memories of me. 

As you can see, this "resolution" has more components than just weight, but that sure is a big part of it.  This is something I need to do for myself and my family, my health and my life.  It is going to be tough and uncomfortable, but necessary.  This blog is going to help me talk about my challenges, successes and frustrations along this road.  I know that it is going to be something I rely on going forward.

I know I can do this, but I am nervous about failure and my expectations.  But I am going to do it, I am going to do it.  I can, I must, I will.

My hubby and I weigh in tomorrow....yikes!! Just a starting point an a life journey that we are going to do together!!

Until then, please have a great new years.  We are having a low key night at home, watching movies, playing games, and eating the last of the junk from Christmas!  This is not a resolution, this is a decision to make me a priority, to put my health first.

Wish me luck.  2012, I need you to be a good one!